MENtell Illness

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At the age of 4, though I don’t truly recall

My father told me that he had to go and wouldn’t be back

He told me if he stayed, he might go to jail

That was the first sign of my MENtell illness

Here comes 10, that’s when I had to have MENtell illness

First he told me don’t tell your mama

Then he told me she won’t care

Lastly, he told me he told her, she told him she didn’t care.

Around 15 or so, the first man told me, “I LOVE YOU”

Hadn’t heard THAT ONE before not from a man, a friend or anyone

He told me and told me, then I told him, and I let him

After that the love didn’t fade, we just did

Now here I am at 50, remembering the two men that told me

They’d love honor and cherish for always…HA HA HA!! they TOLD lies

MENtell lies, that’s what they do, then they wonder why

So many women suffer from MENtell illness……….

 

–ButterfliesNLilies

Kimberly M Frazier 1.9.2K18

 

 

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Phenomenal Woman by: Maya Angelou

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I’m not cute or built to suit a fashion model’s size
But when I start to tell them,
They think I’m telling lies.
I say,
It’s in the reach of my arms,
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I’m a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That’s me.
I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,
It’s the fire in my eyes,
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing in my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I’m a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That’s me.
Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can’t touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them,
They say they still can’t see.
I say,
It’s in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I’m a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That’s me.
Now you understand
Just why my head’s not bowed.
I don’t shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing,
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It’s in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
the palm of my hand,
The need for my care.
’Cause I’m a woman
Phenomenally.
PHENOMENAL WOMAN
THAT’S ME

Could You

If I let you in, could you love me

Could you love me like you say

Or would it be a temporary thing

Could you love me in that agape way

If I let you in, could you care for me

Could you care for me always

Not just in wonderful times

But  on good and bad days

If I let you in, could you honor me

Honor me with kindness, love and compassion

Could you honor me from your innermost

Or would you leave my heart in ashes

If I let you in, could you love me

Could you love me like you say

Or would it be a temporary thing

Could you love me in that agape way

~~ KimberlySpeaks♥ButterfliesNLilies (c) 11/12/2017

THE DAY WILL COME

The day will come when someone will love you FOR YOU!

Not for who they think you should be.

The day will come when someone will care only for you

Because he always loves what he sees

The day will come when someone will hold you right

Pressing out all the struggles thus far

The day will come when he’ll cradle your heart softly

Always telling you how special you are

The day will come when the love you need from him

Will be standing right before your face

The day will come when he will care, understand and love you

And the pain from the past will be gone without a trace.

-30- KIMBERLY M FRAZIER 
10/09/2016

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THE LIFE YOU SPEAK

Entering into a new season in life
Deleting the negative people and things
Allowing my heart to let go of strife
And speaking life and love, not more games

I realize for years I’ve spoken death
Let out into the atmosphere the loneliness I felt
Pushing away happiness with my lips
Sitting in the dredge that my tongue dealt

TODAY, I choose to speak greatness
Speaking life love and joy into existance
Embracing the beauty of the gifts given to us
Allowing this heart to resinate and be courageous

The LIFE you speak is up to you to enthusiasticly hold
Its up to YOU to ensure your own joy and peace
Life is in YOUR hands, and it can be like gold
Fire refined and for your joy to increase

So be mindful of the words YOU speak aloud
Fill them with a sweetness that will soothe souls
Not with bitterness, anger and dread that are distructively proud
Fill your world with greatness, joy and love goals

THE LIFE YOU SPEAK is yours and yours alone
So choose wisely what you say and even how its said
For the LIFE YOU SPEAK can be good or like a heavy stone
So SPEAK THE LIFE YOU desire, deserve and won’t regret

Remember, the LIFE YOU SPEAK not may be but IS YOUR OWN

~~~KIMBERLY M FRAZIER
♥ButterfliesNLilies♥

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ONE DAY

ONE DAY by Kimberly Frazier

One day, you will make her cry
One day, you won’t hear her heart
One day, her dreams will come true
One day, you’ll see, its not you

One day, you will laugh at her tears
One day, after you misuse her trust
One day, HER truth will manifest
One day, you’ll understand its NOT you

One day, her tears will dry away
One day, her smile will return
One day, she will laugh out loud again
One day, you’ll KNOW it’s NOT because of you

ONE DAY

♠KimberlySpeaks♠ButterfliesNLilies♠

When Love Loses ~ A poem

For twenty years I had envisioned you, the love we had, the power we shared

In the blink of an eye, there you were, on the screen in front of me with that smile

All the emotions, the feelings, the tearing flooded my soul like cold water quenching a thirst

You smiled at me, I heard your voice and the world seem more right than ever before

I held your face and kissed you lips as though nothing had changed

You scent, your strength the tender love we made

We spoke of dreams we had and the life we wanted to build in real time

Never knowing or even beginning to fathom that the truth would kill those dreams

Built up anger that overshadowed the years of love we thought we lost

There across the miles across the seas of hopes and oceans of dreams

Is the shell of something, maybe really nothing but childish expectations

Here I stand in the muck of what never was, and will never be, alone

Heavy with my thoughts, weighted down with the reality of love loss

Here I stand, Heavy in my thoughts, weighted down with the reality of love lost

♠KimberlySpeaks♠ButterfliesNLilies♠

New Love

Is it really new or have you learned to accept the best

Not the best for anyone else but the best for you

Have you finally learned that you, my love have worth

There is beauty, honor and grace within you

New Love

Is it really new or have your eyes been opened to LOVE

Not “love” that we commonly think of or refer to

But that love that connects not just physically

It connects to the soul the beauty that is within you two

NEW LOVE

The love that I see in your eyes that melts my heart

The hope that I feel when you hold me in your arms

The joy that is knowing my heart is safe with you

You don’t play games or uses those silly charms

NEW LOVE

That’s the love that comes from God and joins two

Naturally, spiritually, emotionally, and even physical

This love that is IN THE FAVOR OF GOD ABOVE

This newest of loves, loving me, loving him, its greatest of all

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New Love

WORDS

The saying that words once spoken cannot be retrieved!

What I want to say is that if someone claims to love you or care for you, but at every chance they get they belittle, call you names, attack your character….THAT IS NOT LOVE!

Words are to be used to uplift, encourage, assist when we go through hard times, but NEVER to hurt.  Sure there will be times we we get angry, but when we are unable to control our tongue that speaks to our maturity.  It speaks to how much we truly care! How much we really love.

The Bible teaches us that “Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn’t want what it doesn’t have.
Love doesn’t strut,
Doesn’t have a swelled head,
Doesn’t force itself on others,
Isn’t always “me first,”
Doesn’t fly off the handle,
Doesn’t keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn’t revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end”

However it seems that HUMAN “love” has become corrupt, broken and diseased!  If this is the love that is available, then I don’t want it.  I will NEVER AGAIN allow ANYONE to use their words to break, belittle, or betray my trust.  I pray that God will strengthen me and encourage my heart!

Love and peace

#KimberlySpeaks♥ButterfliesNLilies♥